...felt as if you had the weight of the world on your shoulders?
...had so much to do that you didn't even know how to get started?
...had big plans, but seemed to struggle to make yourself follow through?
I think that's where I am right now. There are so many things that I need to be working on. I have a hutch that is halfway through with its facelift. I need to be making a bag for a friend that is about to have her fourth child. I am working through the book Crazy Love and want to spend more time in it. I have a house to pack, and a new house to find, as well as paperwork to do in order to try and get approved for a mortgage (again). I have a meeting next week in order to get started with the college group at church, which I am more excited about then I could put into words or express in a blog!!! I need to be getting experience so that when its time to try to get a job, I am hire-able. and that idea makes me all teary eyed, because I have had the privilege of being a stay at home mom for 12 years now...and its been the best job I could have ever had (although it doesn't pay all that well :) ).
I could keep going with this list for a really long time, but all of us have a list. We all have things we love to do, things we need to do, things we have to do, people counting on us, etc, etc, etc. What do you do to work down your list? to get yourself motivated to start? Do you have an actual list written out or just know what needs done in your head? Does having a list excite you or is it something you dread seeing?
At the beginning of the year, it seems like people take a harder look at their life, long for significance, and wonder if they are on the right track or need to make changes.
I am not a resolution person, but I do spend a bit of time, almost daily, looking at how things are going, what I am doing with my life, and talking with God about what He wants me to do differently. Repeatedly He reminds me to trust Him. That He has all the details worked out already. That I can depend on Him, He will never leave, and He will always make it possible for me to do anything and everything He asks of me.
Sometimes I wonder why He has such great faith in me. Sometimes I feel like I am going to fail. But, He has never let me down. He always picks me up, brushes me off, and helps me to start again.
There are some big changes for this year. He is helping me not to fear change, but rather to embrace and appreciate it, even be excited about it. And He is so patient with me, when I am trying to figure out what needs done first, and how to take steps in the right direction. I am so thankful for the patience He has with me, and that He never throws His hands up in the air and gives up on me.
Knowing the value and belief and potential He sees in me makes a world of difference!!!
