I guess God is trying to move me past any and all fear of the unknown. To figure out how to cling so tight to Him, and lean so hard into Him, that there is no room for fear or worry of everything that is up in the air. I have no clue what life is supposed to look like right now. But I also have this crazy sense that its all going to be okay. Different...by far...but okay.
I know who holds my life in the palm of His hand. I know who loves me like no one else ever could. I know that He is loving the freedom to write my life story the way that He knows is best. I know that the plans He has for me are so far above and beyond anything I could have come up with on my own. I know all of that beyond a shadow of a doubt.
There is a lot of freedom in completely letting go and letting Him do whatever He wants.
It gives your heart a crazy peace.
It strengthens you.
It allows you to be a better person, happier, less weighed down by the weight of the world.
But it doesn't come automatically. You have to want it and work for it. Sometimes on a second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day basis. But He has promised it will always be worth it...to choose Him. To walk in obedience. To be His alone.
To listen to His voice reassuringly say, "just wait and see what I do with this!"
